Our Big Screen Dreams

Things I felt guilty over today:

** sleeping through my morning quiet time

** putting my cranky baby back to bed VERY shortly after she woke up (but she did sleep 2 more hours)

** going to the store with no plan and buying $50 of snacky foods that I never buy.

** on the food note, i fed my kids McDonalds just because i didn’t feel like cooking.

** forced my child to eat cream cheese on his bagel. he cried forever and then suddenly polished the bad boy off.

** working on my blog while Kai watched 1.5 hours of Best of Mighty Machines

** that i don’t spend more time educating my preschooler on my own

** not drying my hair.

But you know what’s cool?? Really, none of it matters. It’s so funny how guilty we make ourselves feel over things that really aren’t that bad. So I slept through quiet time, but you know why? Because I had an awesome date with my husband…I made up for it later in the day. On the food front, if I was doing it every day, yeah, it wouldn’t be good. But beating myself up over chex mix, animal crackers, and mcdonalds isn’t worth it…yet i still felt like I needed to confess to my husband. So my kid watched an insane amount of TV but we also played outside and practiced our letters, numbers and measuring.

And come to think of it, the only reason I feel bad about any of those things is because I think others will judge. But, my self worth comes from the Lord. I am totally acceptable before him no matter what my hair looks like. This post isn’t all that random if I would have ever published the post about my latest bible study : The Search for Significance.

Point being: NONE OF IT MATTERS SO ENJOY YOUR DAY!!

so this blog started out as a way for me to track what was going on in our lives.. somewhere along the way i stopped posting about our everyday stuff. i’ve missed things like starlet starting to walk and stunt boy in swim lessons. instead, i kept feeling like every post i made needed to be something extra special or enlightening. And while I’ll always give praise to the One who deserves it, I still need to record my life. i stopped posting stuff because i felt like it was just rambling and mundane….but hello, its a blog, a journal of sorts, you are allowed to ramble. i was great at it at my old blog…in fact, soon i’m going to import both of my old blogs to this one so i have everything in one place. i realize they have our names throughout but i’m okay with that.