Prayer

I have a few really good posts in my drafts and I hate to start with this last minute one, but I could use some prayers of peace and victory and I know a lot of you are praying friends.

Anyone on my Facebook may remember back when I was in North Carolina I posted a lot about pain I was in. I called the dr several times but never went in because it was just a come and go pain. Then, in December, I made my very first ER visit. After a CAT scan and other tests were done everything was pretty inconclusive and ‘assumed’ to be a ruptured ovarian cyst only because one ovary was smaller than the other.

Since then at least twice a month for a two to three day period I have been stricken with an unexplained pain similar to cramps. Really really bad pain–like make you wanna pass out pain. The codeine (even taking two like the ER dr said) doesn’t help at all. The only way for the pain to go away is to sit still where it isn’t aggitated…there are still cramps, but just not as intense. Obviously, sitting still isn’t too easy with 2 kids, especially when EP is gone.

A couple weeks ago as I described this pain to my friend Tamara she asked me if it could be a returning of endometriosis. A few years ago (like 3 months before I got pregnant with Stunt Boy) I had a cyst removed and several spots of endo were removed. I hadn’t even thought of it. I mean, doesn’t that go away with babies?? And I’ve had two. And doesn’t that lead to infertility, again I have two kids. But as I sat in bed in pain Saturday for the second time this month I looked it up. Every pain that I have experienced was mentioned. It makes sense because endometriosis cannot be seen on a cat scan or a sonogram which I have had done – only by doing a scope procedure (which I have had done twice).

So, my mom emailed me monday morning reminding me to call an set up an appointment today. I was kinda surprised they got me in same day. Sure enough the Dr. thinks its the same thing. But, again, the only way to know or treat it is to have the scope procedure. Good news is they can tie my tubes while there so all isn’t lost if they don’t find anything (which I am believing they will find something!!). It couldn’t be worse timing considering EP hit the road at 3 am that very morning not to return for weeks. :-/

I need peace to make the right decisions during this time. When to have it? Now? After EP gets back? Where will the kids go? How long will I need help this time? What does this mean for my own travels to TN? I plan to spend the weekend in prayer of the right timing and details and I will have PEACE moving forward. Unless He tells me otherwise, I will have surgery next Friday, April 30th. (Funny, that’s my 6th wedding anniversary. Guess nothing says happy anniversary like making sure you can no longer reproduce! ha!).

I’m praying for victory, not healing. I firmly believe this is an attack from Satan. I believe that I am already healed by the stripes of Jesus (1 Peter 2:24 – by whose stripes you WERE healed. were – already done.). This attack is far more than physical. Being a good mother and wife is hard when you are battling physically. It also effects my finances, which in turn effects my mentality (more than I care to admit). This is exactly what I meant in THIS post. Stealing my health, finances, and well-being. I’m claiming VICTORY over this battle.

Please agree with me in prayer!!