Here it is. I promised to be honest.
Remember THIS post? You know the one where I talked about how it just works, etc?? Today, I’m here to tell you that, while it does work, it ain’t always very easy.
I’ve had a few rough weeks. Not in the sense that anything bad has happened, but that its just hard. I’m tired. I miss my husband.
We’ve traveled twice now to Tulsa to see him and each time I leave my heartaches. As much as I can do with out him, I need that man. I miss him sitting on my couch. I’m sad that he isn’t here to watch the Olympics with me, because its something we always do together. I even miss the mound of clothing on the floor that makes me angry when he’s here. I miss the kisses before bed and hearing he and SB pray over the monitor. Not going to lie, I miss the help, too. But really, I just miss the man. Period.
Also, I’m just constantly so impressed with my kids. They travel so well. Four 6 hour trips (5 driving; and an hours worth of stops along the way) in 3 weeks….and they were great. They are great at home when I’m juggling dinner and laundry and packing school lunches all at the same time. Stunt Boy has really taken to helping with Starlet. And not that I leave my 9 month old in my 4 year olds care per se, but its nice to know that I can leave the room and he’ll tell me exactly what she’s doing and even taking stuff from her that he knows she shouldn’t have. He’s amazing.
Jesus. Wow. Without THAT man in my life I’d be a true mess. On the days I breakdown, the Word is my comfort. On days I am afraid, His Word is my shield. There is rest for my soul in the arms of my Savior. Also, my Church has been stepping it up!! My Pastors sermons are on fire and the gifts of the Spirit are manifesting even more within the body. Its amazing to see that our God is still just as supernatural as he was during the day’s of Moses. And that WE, you and I, have the same power in us that is in Him. (Eph 1:19-23) Gah….and there is the baby……
Of course it’s tough. You’re a pair and a husband and wife should be together. BUT God has called him to this and thus you as a family which is why you have kids that can handle it. (Side note; which is why we know our kids can handle us doing foster care)
And please remember that you have a friend that goes through the same thing ALL the time even though her husband is here. Even though he sleeps in our bed every day. We only see him two days a week, one of which is taken up by family most of the time. Because they don’t get it. 5 days out of the week I’m doing it all alone for the most part. I’m not complaining, just telling you I understand and I know it’s not quite the same as him being away both situations are not ideal. But by the grace of God we handle it and make it another day.