Tonight was one of those night to me where you look at your child and think, “who are you? did i really make you? are you really getting to be so big?”
Stunt Boy holds, naturally, such a huge place in my heart. My first born. I can’t remember life before…I really have tried and I can’t.
Tonight as I laid in his bunk bed, reading his devotional, talking about God’s love for him, answering questions and praying. I couldn’t help but remember putting him to bed in his crib, rocking him, waiting for him to FINALLY talk, his funny baby walk, the first time he laughed at a cartoon….silly stuff, but stuff that is forever in a mothers heart.
The little baby that I once rocked like crazy just to get him to fall asleep is now asking me who we need to pray for or better yet telling me why he wants to pray for someone else. 
He fills my heart with such joy.
The I think about the day I cried in the parking lot of Wal-Mart about 2 weeks before Starlet was born. I cried for SB. I cried that I wasn’t just changing my life forever, but his. That he’d have to share me. That I wouldn’t be able to give him as much attention as I used to. I cried so hard that day (and I am NOT a crier!!). And then she came and he just took to brotherhood so well. He’s so caring and compassionate.
This boy… I have no words…just tears.
LOVE this. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately too. i just put K’s booster seat up and it broke my heart. I can’t explain it, I know I have another one coming along to use it shortly, but something about the fact that Kaitlin, my BABY will never use it again, breaks my heart a little. And I totally had the same Walmart cry-fest that you did about Starlet coming along. I cried so many times for K, just because I knew what she, in her innocence, did not. And now it seems silly b/c I can’t imagine it any other way. Glad you’re back to blogging.
I’ve never thought, did I make you? Hehe!!
Sweet post and I love the smiling baby Kai, just adorable. I started purging all of Belle’s clothes I had been saving in prep for a move. Also parting with so many of the baby things. Both happy and sad tears watching her grow.